Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Feb 2, 2011

This blog is more about yesterday Feb 1, 2011

A Day I will never forget!
It was a very rain day from the beginning. I already knew it was going to be a very hard and sad day, we needed it gloomy too.
So yesterday was Mr. Gary's funeral like I said sad day!

Kevin got off work very early so he could watch Lillie as I went to the funeral. My mother and I road together, I drove of course because she doesn't do well with busy roads. Well I thought I knew where I was going, well really I did know but the rain threw me off that's how hard it was coming down. So I got us there like really one minute before it started everyone was already sitting down. I was pretty upset at myself because I couldn't let Ashley know I was there nor did I get a chance to say good bye to Mr. Gary.

The ceremony was beautiful and of course I don't believe there was a dry eye in the room. That room by the way was packed too Mr. Gary and the family are very loved! Well once the ceremony was over it was time for everyone to head to the grave site. Well in the car line up we ended up near the back, so going down the street something has happen up a head. We lost the group a head of us because there ended up being a car wreck, once we get around to being able to see what had happen, we see that it was the funeral escort guy on the bike that had gotten hit. It was so very sad and it looked very very bad. Well we couldn't stop there we needed and wanted to get to the grave site I really wanted to be there for the family. Once we finally got there all eyes were wet once again. After Bro. Bob said a few words and a beautiful prayer, Mrs. Connie just couldn't hold it back anymore. That's when they began the 21 gun salute and folding the American flag for Mrs. Connie. I sure couldn't keep my tears back either, Mr. Gary was a great man. Once everything was done, I pretty much ran to Ashley I needed and wanted to be there for her, seeing her so hurt just broke my heart. So as soon as I was able to get to her and she saw who it was she said my name and grabbed hold of my neck and just bawled her eyes out and did I. but I will never forget that moment and how heart broken I felt from my best friend and her family.

Well I couldn't just leave right after that, so I waited till everyone got done saying what they needed to and went back to Ashley and tried to talk with her a bit more, and loved on Mrs. Connie and Danielle some more.

After that then we headed back to the funeral home so dad could get his truck. On the way there the wreck was still there so we knew it had to of been something really bad. Dad had asked the funeral people once we got there and they had said the man on the bike didn't make it. Talk about sad!

So that was pretty much my day yesterday a very sad and depressing day..

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Jan, 27 2011

One sad and crappy day!

I woke up this morning feeling pretty good, did my normal morning starting things. I iron Kevin's clothes, made his lunch and cooked breakfast. I started to feel up his water bottle that he takes to work with ice. Well while standing there facing the freezer I started to have tunnel vision, then my hearing started to go away, I couldn't catch my breath and I got hot very fast. Yep that's right I about pasted out but I sat down in the middle of the kitchen floor trying to catch my breath and calm down. That's when Kevin came out of the bedroom to find me on the floor and helped me to the couch. My chest was killing me I felt like I got punched straight in the heart or something. So Kevin of course began to worry and wasn't sure about going to work. I told him I'd be fine and if anything I'd call my mother.

So being reassured he left for work at 6 am. I got back in bed knowing Lillie would be up around 7, but I just needed to rest after what just happened. So I was right Lillie was up at 7 like clock work. We sat down for a little bit watching her cartoons till she was ready to eat breakfast. So getting her into her highchair made me realize today was going to be a very bad day for me. I was so weak it killed me to put her in her chair, so after giving her something to eat I called my mom right away. She called back to let me know she had taken off work and would help me. My mother is so amazing I don't know what I would of done with out her today!

Well not long after she got here, I found out that my best friends dad had a brain aneurysm and was pronounced brain dead. I was so hurt for her, her sister and of course her mother. He was such a great man and still so young, I can't even imagine then pain they are going through. So he was on life support till about 3 this after noon once his mom and brother got in from Arizona.
So that was another thing to top my day off with.

Lillie's nap time, and after I finally calmed down from the earlier news. I laid down for a nap my mom told me not to get up when Lillie did and I listened and it was great! I don't even remember the last time I took a two hour nap. I felt a lot better afterwards just not a 100% by all means. The day was pretty slow and laid back for me, just worried about my friend and her family mostly.

Kevin got home about 3:30 with sonic for dinner (healthy right) he was still worried about me and ask my mom to stay while he had to leave once again for school. She of course said yes and that she liked being needed. I enjoyed her company it gets kinda lonely around here with just Lillie and I. Lillie still doesn't talk much so its kinda in a way quiet around here.

Well its now 10:10 and Lillie is asleep and Kevin is doing his homework. I guess I could be sleeping but I just have to much still on my mind. Ooh yeah about that murder that happened and the kid getting arrested for it. Well his so called "friends" are being pretty stupid and there were rumors going around that they were going to wear "Free Paco" (Paco being his nickname) Shirts and the people that didn't agree with them would get shot or something weird like that. I mean wow what has really become of this world! I told my mom that I don't think Munford TN has every been on the news so much like it has in the past few weeks, and I don't see this ending just yet.

See like I said way to much on my mind tonight to just go to bed. but this blog is not out of control so I will end with this. Life is truly to short! So tell someone that you love them, give someone a meaningful hug, never have regrets. Most of all Live Life to the fullest! You will be Missed but never forgotten Mr. Gary Theilecke!

Jan 26, 2011( yes its the 27th)

So yesterday was one crappy day right from the start of things.
I always get up when my husband does for work, to iron his clothes, make his lunch, and cook him breakfast.

Well yesterday I woke up with one crazy, bad A of a headache!
There was nothing I could do about it either! I had nothing I'm aloud to take for it here at the house.
So I tired to push through the day and it wasn't even 9 o'clock yet when I just broke down crying in so much pain! Trying to take care of a 17 month old with one crazy headache is really bad on a pregnant lady! Oh yeah that's right I am pregnant as well about 11 weeks and some odd days. This pregnancy is not going as smooth as my first one at all.
So once it was Lillie's nap time I went to try taking one as well. That didn't work out because my headache was that bad, but I ended up just laying there in the dark and quiet hoping and praying my headache would go away.

So hoping to get a bit of a break when Kevin got home from work didn't happen. Which I guess I should of known he also has a lot on his plate right now. He works full time and is also a full time student, with a family I couldn't do it. So I am proud of him!

So to break it down for you, Headaches and me do not get along at all!!
I ended the night with a game of Halo Reach with Kevin how funny yet sad that is.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Jan. 24 2011

So today was a day I felt like I was on my knees praying the whole time.
Jan 20 2011 there was an elderly couple here close to my home that was murdered.
I didn't know the couple at all, but the day it had happen I looked my husband in the eye and said, " when they find out who killed them, they need to do the same to him!" I know crazy but yes I do believe in the death sentence as harst as it sounds. but I believe my reason why is a whole other story.

Sunday I got a phone call from my father since I was not able to make it to church. I asked him how the service had went, he then got a little quiet and said it was very sad and that the boy (yes they fond the killer less then 48 hours later) that murdered the elderly couple was a member of our church as was his family. I then be began to tear up I just couldn't believe what he was saying. I then had to look at our church directory to put a face with the name. There it was picture and all Jacob Brown.

I could not sleep last night so many things were going through my head about this all. Why did he do it? How could ANYONE just beat two elderly people to death. How is his mother handling all this? (whom is a very sweet lady!) When can I get my gun permit and will my dad get me a gun for my birthday? Was there really mental problems like everyone says there was? I tossed and turned all night long over all this and I believe I will again tonight.

I believe if the mental test comes back negative or how every those things work. Even knowing the family, I still believe he should be tried as an adult, and if not death penalty at least one hit with a bat to let him know how they felt!
All of this just breaks my heart for so many reasons. Was the kid really hurting that bad inside to be so angry at a 81 and 75 year old couple so kill them. I feel for their daughter who found them, that image will never leave her mind.

Ok well I could go on and on about how I'm thinking about all this but I think ya'll get the point. Now its just a waiting game till they let us know why he did it, and when and if he will be tried as an adult.